Secret Crush

for the one a dare not to mention, not one strand of your hair i shall fail to take notice. your nostalgic scent i long to smell again, the sweet lips on your angelic face i desire to touch with mine, your voice filled with warmth i long to hear again, and your eyes... o the dear treasures that my memory takes precious care of. it is with these that made my heart love for the first and the last time like there's no tomorrow... how overly dramatic i have become because of you, but i care not for love is within me. i love you so dear... but i cannot show my feelings out in the sunlight for i am but a child who does not know how to stand up for my desires. my lips are too weak to speak of the three words i long to deliver to you; my body trembles with shyness; and my eyes avert yours for the reasons that i think you know. should i reveal my love for you, many heads shall turn in shock, many eyebrows shall raise, and many voices shall rage in anger. ashamed, i am telling you that i stand weak before them whom i consider gods that continue to haunt me - bringing forth my fears and frustrations over and over again. i am sorry my dear but i am trapped in a shell of fear. my love for you shall be kept known only by i for a while longer... or maybe forever. o why do you frustrate me so much my love? but no matter, i have a place where we could be free to express our love for each other. we shall meet there tonight and be happy for just atleast the night. My love, i shall see you in my dreams... in the place i have filled with yellow roses - your favorite flowers, doves, a sparkling river over the bright sunny sky, and a lucious green little hill where we could lay our picnic blanket. My love, meet me tonight i beg of you. i shall fill your empty longing heart and you shall do the same with mine. let us kiss the night away... let me take you in my fantasies...